My intention was to join Josh in the 30-day animal communication challenge by connecting each day to an animal. What I noticed is that I had several periods where I got behind in my writing and posting of these journal entries. I’m not lazy. I’m motivated! The truth is that I have no idea how my psychic connection works, which I’ve shared in another entry. It showed up one day when I went looking for some answers to my (prior) failing health, and has shifted itself frequently over the last 6.5 years. I used to get upset or feel sad or disappointed when I couldn’t make my antenna work, got interference, felt bowled over by energy and life, or lots of other things that come with being psychic, empathic, or a medium.
Nowadays, I still feel that way at times, yet I’m also learning to go with the flow. Sometimes the flow is beautiful and special, sacred and abundant! Other times the flow is sporadic, causes some pain and confusion, or I get a door closed when I want it to open wide. If this is what you too experience, it’s good to remember you’re only one part of this spiritual equation. You’re the part that can listen, just like you’d listen to a radio, but if they’re playing blaring commercials, you’re allowed to turn off the radio and rest. You’re also one part that can speak, but if your voice is tired or your mind is preoccupied, are you able to listen to or join in the song? 😊
You may not know when you need rest, but the Universe does and is always watching out for you. I’m sure they want you to align with the best Sources and get what you’re meant to experience. You won’t know allllll their reasons, but that’s where trust factors in. ❤️
If you’re never taught about your own particular channeling method — since each of us is unique, and what works for others may not be right for you, though with Divine purpose — how can you expect to understand how it works? I try to learn how to find the channels and vibrations that are the best matches for my gifts, but this happens through trial and error. I’m led to understand that, just like radio frequencies that sometimes go haywire when nature “interferes,” some people or other vibrations mess with my connection. I don’t know how it works, but I’m inquisitive, tenacious, and, as I mentioned, learning.
There’s a Gift in Everything
The days I can’t connect used to make me feel bad about myself. “Why can’t I do this when others can?” I’d ask the Universe, God, my angels, and myself. After hearing enough gentle Heavenly laughter, I realized it was best to ask a different question or find a different outlook. The one I’m happiest with is being grateful that I can do this at all. Most people can’t. (Most people actually can but don’t know they’re doing it, so they think they can’t.) 😉 But for these intents and purposes, the ones brave enough to try get a pass in my book if they have an off day, month, year, or whatever. Nobody knows what comes along with some of this stuff, and I’m here to offer compassion and help to those who’ve had similar challenges when it comes to what we do. And it’s not that I don’t connect at all. It’s that I can’t always do it when I want to or receive answers I seek in those exact moments. They often come later, so part of this is perspective.
When I want to connect and feel the door’s closed, I know it’s a gift. Somewhere the timing is off, and so I look for things to be happy about. My worth isn’t based on how good a channel I am. (I think I’m a pretty good one, and the feedback from others tells me that’s usually true, so I’m thrilled to know that!) I’m not sure how or why people determine what someone’s worth is based on, if that’s even a thing, because we all have worth! The bigger our hearts, and the more value we can see in everything, even if we don’t get what we want or something goes awry, seems a decent interpretation of an evolving person, though. Maybe if society placed a higher value on our earnestness, kindness, openness, authenticity, and fortitude, things would shift for the better? We have value no matter what, but these qualities help ground us and let us reflect on things other than just our work.
I can only do my part, so those off days or moments remind me to remain humble, giving, helpful, and myself. That’s probably part of the value of God’s messages like:
“The door’s closed so you can remember your value lies not in what you give to others but also what you do in your own time. Ahem. Like being at peace around things out of your general control.”
P.S. This is important to note: I tried to upload this entry and the internet connection simply wouldn’t work to let me do it. I figured I’ll wait and do it the next day. In the meantime, upon reflection, I realized my day was bookended, morning and night, with offering necessary messages from the Universe to two people, both of whom are experiencing deep crises. In each case, I continued to think about the situations after the direct communication was over because they’re landmark experiences for them. I didn’t know these interactions would happen, but God did and planned my day(s) accordingly. Had I also connected with an animal or two for this challenge, I would’ve been on overload. My brain wouldn’t have been able to settle down. I again say thank you to this loving Universe/God/angels/higher self who watch over us and help lead us to what we need, even if we think we want or need something else in the moment. ❤️
© 8/21/16 by Angel-Rose Coen.
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